Time zooms by

I've lost several people in my life to death since my last post... children born... life continues, marching, almost running by... as more people lose jobs, more of our money goes overseas to foreign lenders to pay credit debt on shitty, dangerous products imported from China in the first place... I'm working... working to keep busy, working to keep from losing my mind... I focus on the zombies around me, the destructive forces at work, fighting them back, the voices and fear I've created, the voice of my mother, and my inner critic, who long ago grew more rotten and gnarled, mutated and repulsive... a seether I long ago lost control of which will destroy me, but not today. Today valium, chronic and tears get me through.