@thatkevinsmith, my own personal Superman

I've been a devotee since Clerks; laughed at Mallrats and loved Chasing Amy. I was wet with anticipation for Dogma, and it delivered. I followed the Red State news with interest, and in the middle of January began listening to Plus One and JaSBGO.

I OWN a Buddy Jesus I bought years ago at my local comic book shop. I am a Fangirl.

I am also very busy carrying on a career, financially supporting a spouse and family, and trying to navigate a midlife crisis. I hit rock bottom in December after seeing a movie notof Mr. Smith's making, but one he and his wife Jennifer discussed in episode 7 of Plus One: Catfish.

I am a catfish with a 5 year story. Knowing his thoughts on the movie as shared in Plus One, I want to ask Kevin Smith what he would do in my shoes.

Me: a "catfish" with a guilt complex... Them: Someone with cameras, interested in the story with a promise of "confidential at first". The word "Docu-reality" was used. What does that mean? Is there any way to go about this and still come out ok?

I want no exposure. I want no pain to come to those I love. I don't want to disrupt lives. BUT, and this is so important... I want other people to know they aren't alone. I want this topic open for discussion, and I want to heal.

So... What Would Silent Bob Do?

ChronicLady

I don't know what to do...

I came back to this blog to air my laundry... put it all out there... in anonymity. To share the ugly side of my personality, let my crazy out, and work through it. To connect with others so maybe I wouldn't feel so alone... to unburden myself... somewhat to brag... possibly to excuse my behavior and especially to ease my guilt. NOT to hurt anyone.

Do I speak? I've thought alot about it... what exactly does "confidential at first" mean?