When love isn't enough

Not sleeping well despite exhaustion... I am carrying a family of 4 on my shoulders alone, with no end in site. When did it become ok to use me? Despite conversation with spouse things aren't changing.

I admitted to him yesterday how badly my depression had taken hold, and that I was suicidal. I told him things must change. I'm certain though nothing will unless I force a hand.

Do you know how much it hurts to watch the people who say they love you watch you struggle and suffer and do nothing to assist outside of adjusting the bridle?

I talked to my girlfriends about what it takes to leave... my own experience says "another man", and that doesn't seem healthy. In every case for all of them, the answer is the same. Ultimately, another relationship has been required in every scenario we discussed. These women, strong in other areas of life, all needed the crutch, final push of another man to leave.

That's terrifying. Why don't these people love me enough to change?