Here, Kitty Kitty....

And his response?

Your writing is absolutely delish. you manage to put into words the exact energy between us...and trust me you are not the only one feeling flustered, feeling intoxicated with desire....

As for the roller coaster, anyone is welcome to get off when they choose, but rides like this only get better once you get over the first hill...from there you get to enjoy all the tension, enjoy all the desire, enjoy the long, painstaking anticipation filled by the act of climbing that hill...its the plummet into the first hill that takes our breath away like a first kiss, like the first time we learned about our sexuality and we knew there was something about the action that drove us both wild....

For me this unfamiliar confidence you exude, this unfamiliar sexual aggressiveness, it takes me back to grade school...sweating palms, nervous notes between class, a fumbling education into the newness of sex...and though I feel we both have got a fair share of experience in what we like, the newness here is our chemistry, an excitement that is unmatched in thousands of eye contacts in bars, unmatched in dozens upon dozens of blind dates, unmatched in that we both want to hold control so greatly when in reality we both are on this ride, neither driving, neither riding, but two people enjoying...sharing...an outlet into a fantasy world that we both can use, that we both certainly enjoy, but definately not an outlet that is meant to cause stress or harm to our worlds which we both seem to have an incredible grasp on...

I know all about control, and trust me, I love to be in it (well not always in the bedroom, but thats another story) I am not trying to strip you of your control, not trying to add chaos to your otherwise wonderful sounding life, I am simply enjoying a wonderful moment of fantasy with an incredibly beautiful, incredibly sexy, and incredibly sensual young lady....one that makes me throb when i think of her, one that makes me explode harder to my own touch than I often do to the touch of others...

So this long email is trying to say...don't fear the loss of control, you do hold all of it, in fact you probably hold more than you know...you are in control of when we talk (and trust me I check my email throughout the day), you control if/when we would ever see ourselves face to face or talk on the phone, and you definately control whether you want more pics of me....pics of me thinking of you, pics of me you can enjoy while you are thinking of me....and i took some for you last night....

and though i usually end all my emails with my imagination running wild...I will tell you of a vision of equally intense sensuality....you and I sitting across a bar table, fully clothed, not groping all over one another, but simply soaking it in, soaking in your eyes, your shy but ultimately agreesive smile, your beauty...hearing your words as you tell me what makes your life so happy and knowing that if even for one night in Atlanta or for a hundred nights through email we both share in some fun, an erotic extension of reality, extensions of both of our happiness... no one is trying to replace or displace our current lives, I hope my words did not create a fear of intensity...you and I are both cut from the same cloths, an inner sexuality is wonderful, one that we both enjoy exploring and both seem to understand...no loss of control, no loss of life as we know it, simply a step away from reality for a few moments...I would very much like those moments to continue...

Ad Man

ps - i already had some "new" pics to send you from last night, but i will hold off if you really want me too...i also have some wonderful home videos i like to share...... I am hosting a party on (date omitted)...I will be bored to death for the few days leading up to it...ever been to (location omitted)...;-)