chat and games

after a couple days of email i got up the nerve to chat... his emails over the first few days had lit me on fire, and i had discovered something i never would have guessed... we were extremely sexually compatible. our needs and desires so complemented the other's that i started to panic. reading his thoughts and words made it hard for me to breathe, made my head spin... i quickly discovered that this delicious creature was commanding and used to being in control, and often turned the tables on me, leaving me unable to think or speak. every time i believed i was on top of the game, he would turn my world upside down by doing or saying something to knock my feet out from under me. i was terrified, because i knew i was playing a game, a dangerous and wrong game... but i was sad too, because it was clear that if this had been real, it would be the most signficant and fufilling experience of my life. i spent my life searching for a man that could challenge me like this... now i find him under false pretenses, and there is no going back.